Another year gone by since I stopped to write....
And how life continues to breeze by so fast.
Im typing on my Iphone so bare with me and my spelling mistakes or run on sentences.
Today was a hard day that brought me out of the barn and threw me into reality. Last night at 11 pm I drove down to Nanaimo to bring my beloved diva dog to the vet due to respitory issues. Upon arrivial they thought we were dealing with heart/lung failure. We took xrays and made a plan for the next day.
Upon arriving this morning to find out she's stable but her blood pressure had spiked double the high end of what it possibly should be was alarming to say the least. I didnt realize blood pressure can climb so high that it can cause the blood vessels in your eyes to burst and cause blindness. Down right frightening. Time and life as I knew it stood still in those moments. I called my mom, and cried for the first time. Those who know me know how driven I am and how busy I get. That word buy that affects so many of our lives in this generation. Today forced me to stop and slow down. Be present and be here with Diva.
Waiting and not knowing is the worst gut wrenching pain Ive ever experienced. I dont have human children but Diva who I picked out at 2 days old, I consider to be the same. And the 28 odd horses I also refer to as my fur babies. They are in my blood and make up my world.
Anyway I want to extend my gratitude for today. For living in a country where we have technologic advances and know how to be able to help our furry family members in an emergency. I am greatful for my family who dropped everything to step up to the plate and managed the farm while I couldnt be there as well as my amazing family that allowed me to be an unexpected but welcome house guest in the middle of the night x 2.
Im beyond humbled and thankful for Kendall and Tat, my barn girls who go above and beyond for me every single day I need them to. As well to each and everyone in our circles...boarders, students, parents, clients, friends and all family who reached out through insanely generous offers today, warm hugs and well wishes. Every single one of you mean the world to me though it doesnt get said enough.
Im at a loss for words how greatful, thankful, humbled, filled with love and emotion I feel as I take this time to sit in the outpour of love. Thank you from The bottom of my heart.
Among the many life lessons and "aha" moments that seems to channel
Through my existance today a few tiny words from a conditioner bottle jumped out at me while I was sinking into a bath to relax my mind and body.
It read " Philosophy: Believe in Miricles". Underneath it said "Celebrate Love" and on the side of the tiny bottle the words read "Celebrate the mother that makes you feel special, the father that makes you feel safe, the sister that loves you when you're least lovable, the brother who teaches you to not take life so seriously. Celebrate those who fill your cup, make your heart happy, and love unconditonally"
Thank you for the signs when we need to see them and although under difficult circumstamces, thank you for the immediate wake up call to be present and come from
Love. And so it shall be....
Diva is resting and after a few tests and still an uncertain diagnosis but a hopeful direction we plan to return home together in the morning.
Rest easy everyone. Goodnight.
And how life continues to breeze by so fast.
Im typing on my Iphone so bare with me and my spelling mistakes or run on sentences.
Today was a hard day that brought me out of the barn and threw me into reality. Last night at 11 pm I drove down to Nanaimo to bring my beloved diva dog to the vet due to respitory issues. Upon arrivial they thought we were dealing with heart/lung failure. We took xrays and made a plan for the next day.
Upon arriving this morning to find out she's stable but her blood pressure had spiked double the high end of what it possibly should be was alarming to say the least. I didnt realize blood pressure can climb so high that it can cause the blood vessels in your eyes to burst and cause blindness. Down right frightening. Time and life as I knew it stood still in those moments. I called my mom, and cried for the first time. Those who know me know how driven I am and how busy I get. That word buy that affects so many of our lives in this generation. Today forced me to stop and slow down. Be present and be here with Diva.
Waiting and not knowing is the worst gut wrenching pain Ive ever experienced. I dont have human children but Diva who I picked out at 2 days old, I consider to be the same. And the 28 odd horses I also refer to as my fur babies. They are in my blood and make up my world.
Anyway I want to extend my gratitude for today. For living in a country where we have technologic advances and know how to be able to help our furry family members in an emergency. I am greatful for my family who dropped everything to step up to the plate and managed the farm while I couldnt be there as well as my amazing family that allowed me to be an unexpected but welcome house guest in the middle of the night x 2.
Im beyond humbled and thankful for Kendall and Tat, my barn girls who go above and beyond for me every single day I need them to. As well to each and everyone in our circles...boarders, students, parents, clients, friends and all family who reached out through insanely generous offers today, warm hugs and well wishes. Every single one of you mean the world to me though it doesnt get said enough.
Im at a loss for words how greatful, thankful, humbled, filled with love and emotion I feel as I take this time to sit in the outpour of love. Thank you from The bottom of my heart.
Among the many life lessons and "aha" moments that seems to channel
Through my existance today a few tiny words from a conditioner bottle jumped out at me while I was sinking into a bath to relax my mind and body.
It read " Philosophy: Believe in Miricles". Underneath it said "Celebrate Love" and on the side of the tiny bottle the words read "Celebrate the mother that makes you feel special, the father that makes you feel safe, the sister that loves you when you're least lovable, the brother who teaches you to not take life so seriously. Celebrate those who fill your cup, make your heart happy, and love unconditonally"
Thank you for the signs when we need to see them and although under difficult circumstamces, thank you for the immediate wake up call to be present and come from
Love. And so it shall be....
Diva is resting and after a few tests and still an uncertain diagnosis but a hopeful direction we plan to return home together in the morning.
Rest easy everyone. Goodnight.
